Friday, May 25, 2012

The Deluge

Beneath this heart stopping deluge of pain
I let my thoughts drift to you as I stare at a watery sky
Finality is forever emptiness, all the fire burned to embers
All your thoughts crushed to a singular moment of surrender
I breathe in all the memories & exhale my soul down river
One consciousnesses in the maelstrom swirling towards home

Tuesday, May 22, 2012

Friday, May 18, 2012

The Last Thoughts of a Fading Consciousness

In a moment
All of this shall end
This inhaled breath
Shall be my last
The oxygen & nitrogen mix & dance
Enriching my bloodstream
My heart is beating it's final thump
The neurons in my brain
Are firing one last
Spark of consciousness

I am not afraid
Everything in front of me
Is absolutely beautiful
In fact one might say
Perfect, indeed it is
My memories stretch back
Oh how a body loves a good stretch!
I remember the laughter & the rain
Fishing at the ponds
The smell of the Earth
The breeze, oh the breeze
The sultry devestating eyes
Of a beautiful woman who was once my own
These moments wash over me in time
As do the waves commanded by Posiedon himself
This is a sexy little smirk
This doesn't feel at all like goodbye
There's no sorrow
As my consciousness
Is exhaled from my body; I know
Living, was always the meaning of life

Monday, May 14, 2012

Fencing shadows

I'm just another face in seven billion; 
I guess my failure was thinking I meant more to you
Abandoned to the Fates & the Wind
There are no walls left to start closing in
Fencing shadows while my demons devour me from within
So many pillars of Imagination; all extinguished into a failing light
Sacrificed dreams all bleeding out empathy
We're all just fading until there's nothing left to see

So tell me brother, how to turn this deluge of pain, into rays of Hope
Can you show me Salvation, can you teach me the ways of Joy
Or are all of your smiles just as torn & weathered as mine?

Sunday, May 13, 2012

Mother's Day

Today is a day for Mother's
A Day to honor both God & his works
If a mother is anything she is undoubtebly
A powerful force of divine loving creation
All those living owe their existence to a mother
The one who stood beside us
Even when it seemed all hope was lost
The one who took care of us
When we were helpless, sick, or broken
The one who always got to us first when we fell
The one who was first to put us right back on our feet
Mother is a title unlike any other, it is not given lightly
It is earned
To be a mother you have to be as wise as you are understanding
Anxious as you are patient
Helpful as you are encourging
Loving, kind, & ever enlightening
Mother's are truly one of God's gifts to man
It is often said that a building without a foundation cannot stand
It is the same for the place we call Home
Because without our mother there, a home is just a house
Time, life, & wealth are all fleeting; but a mother's love, 
That is eternal as our place in Heaven above

Friday, May 11, 2012

For my Father : Another Soldier in the War on Cancer

I spent all night thinking about the morning
Sifting through memories like the sands of time
Like I really believed in Happily Ever After
Like I really wasn’t all alone
Like I was built of nothing but Courage & Stout
But when the sun came up & the snow came down
Preacher said some words like he knew you as long as I had
Then they lowered you into that not quite so empty ground
The last thing I remembered was I saw you smiling
So I turned all that sorrow into a black crow
Set it free at the base of pine tree
I still remember the smell of tobacco stalks
I still remember those front porch talks
Sleeping in your lap while the tractor wound down
I always called you Pop instead of Father but
You never raised your hand in violence
You were decent man in a World gone to Hell
You taught us how to stand like men, how to think for ourselves
& How not to be a manly husband cause you never got that right
Momma always ran this house & I always ran momma
So I guess in a way you always looked at me as the man of the house
If it was broke I learned how to fix it, from a pocket watch to a VCR
The only thing I was missing was a hot-rod car but
We had an old Chevy that ran like mule from dusk till dawn
We all our pulled our weight
I never saw you cry till I nearly died that day on that road
Then for the first time I saw my Pop’s soul
His voice was cracked & his hands were shaking
No one could say if I was gonna make it
So many breaks & so many fractures
But we all came through it & I taught myself once again how to walk
I rewalked every inch of that Oak Forest
Coming to stop at Serenity Falls
It was all of one foot tall but it was a beautiful place to hide away
Let the record state that you saved my hide more than once or twice
Without you I’d have never learned when not to fight
How to settle things down & true wrong from right
You told me every man is his own mountain
& whether you move it or not you leave to your own conscience
But then that day came when I realized I could move mine
So I sit down with a pen & became a poet
For all the memories that no one else can share
For all the beers sneaked in through my window
& hidden packs of cigarettes when mom was searching
All I know, I know for certain
My father was a damn good man
He lived a damn good life, he wore the same damn shirt
& hated a tie but, he lived his life
& he tought me how to live mine
From the tragedy of my first broken heart
God how I miss that girl at times
But this is my truth laid on the line
It’s all I have & if it’s not enough then it’s still been worth it
To take this trip down memory lane
Cause now I can see my father’s face, plain as day
All in all, all I wanted to say Pop, is this is your song
You are the Mickey to my Rocky
The Snowman to my Bandit
When I see you in the great big sky
I’m fulfill that promise to spread my wings & fly